Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-3547390-20180206204631

Sounds like our place. I am designing a database to get rid of all the paper, but am currently waiting for approval to make it active, which is taking a while due to a big company merger and plenty of new people being trained.

Yeah, sums up my feelings. Tolerable if I need it, but definitely something I would like to avoid and definitely would never put on my home PC. I wanted to upgrade my CPU to a Coffee Lake, but it seems while Kaby Lake still had available drivers, Coffee Lake isn't so assured and thus it becomes even more untrustworthy.

That is part of the problem. I feel like I am unable to achieve victory. Everyone else might be able to, they are more capable than I could ever be, but I just lack any abilities and am destined for failure.

Except that it isn't really worth it. I saw every episode of Man Versus Wild and Fresh Prince of Bel Air. This was after suffering through all the different versions of I Am Legend. I made it an inch before hitting yet another influence that will require a ton of other games to be played. That was my reward for my effort, more struggles. And making it past those just make it to more. What did all this achieve? Nothing. What did Wheel of Time achieve? Nothing, I ended up not going back to the map or completing Aftershock due to this whole Star Wars thing. What did D&D achieve? Nothing, I found an endless supply of old school RPGs that were completely terrible. What have I accomplished doing 300 Doom levels? Nothing, just a bunch of stuff I hate. What did Heretic accomplish? It opened up Hexen, which I hated even more. What did watching every episode of the original Star Trek give me? A bunch of obscure books. I did Arena, I got Daggerfall which was even worse, and had to stop in order to focus on other terrible series. If I finish X-Wing, what will I accomplish? Getting to Tie Fighter, which I will hate more?

See, this is the problem. Everything I do doesn't reward me for doing it. I just do the terrible part, then find a roadblock which makes me do more terrible stuff, until I am pretty much indefinitely doing terrible things I loathe for the sake of doing them.

You get to play a World of Warcraft server you enjoy. Everyone gets to do what they enjoy, play games they enjoy. Meanwhile I am constantly having to play atrocities for the promise of doing more torture. And I am getting sick of it.