Thread:Vorknkx/@comment-31165294-20180115013148/@comment-3547390-20180118133655

Indeed, if I rush around, I will just find I don't really like anything and am bored because I am lost in a mess of terribleness. That pretty much sums up how I get with music, where I broke my constraints. It didn't make things better, it just made me feel lost and feel like everything didn't have importance, while still hating stuff just as much. So just going out and playing a lot of random titles isn't really the answer. It may be more "free", but my cynicism means it doesn't make me happier. My OCD exists possibly as a defense mechanism, it gives me something to do to make it worthwhile while dealing with nonstop terrible content.

Yes, I should be trying to do things I enjoy. The problem is that I only enjoy a very small plane and it is likely I will get bored if I live on it forever. So this is a great way to extend everything out, experience some new things, and yet not feel it is all entirely fruitless.

The bragging rights isn't me, but I do feel enjoyment at saying I accomplished something. I can say I beat Arena and Daggerfall. I can say I have made my way through over 300 Doom levels. These things aren't to be taken lightly.

The problem is that I don't get to experience futility. I just get a guy with a gun yelling at me to register. I think I don't know my own copy protection.

I was assuming it was something that happened just because I did the mission, I didn't assume I did anything special at all.