Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20191201165653

I believe I have as well, while I would love to expand with a hundred more custom opponents, the actual concepts are all in place. The mechanics and challenge is pretty much the way I wanted it to be. You are also right, it is quite painful indeed. I will report that Episode 4 does seem less painful; I think the openness helps a lot more, plus there are Quad Damages everywhere that make Zombie killing less troublesome. But you are very right, the randomness is quite a major feature, and leads to a much more interesting game. You never know if around the next corner will be a Blazing Fiend, ready to destroy all your progress in a single second. You are also very right about ammo conservation; that has a lot to do with it being shotgun started, you can see the original E2M6 is actually quite brutal since it requires a lot of strategizing to survive. But yes, the mod is entirely designed to punish recklessness, a big part of the design mentality and why I never allowed things like transferring ammo or being able to jump on monsters like you can the ground.

I made a slight update to the server since then since I realized it could be easily added without size conflicts and adds a slight bit more interactivity. You can now push around Radioactive Containers. Note that this feature is pretty rare to ever really be used, since when do you get close enough to them to push them, but it is a thing.

I also fixed a minor issue involving heads. Previously, when you pushed an opponent's head into a resource, and it was a type that could take Ammo, it would take the Ammo even though it was a head. This meant there were cases where ammo could be "eaten" by the head just because you bumped it, definitely not the best situation when ammo matters as much as it does. Now heads don't take Ammo, only living things can.

Minion was thinking something similar; he saw Serafettin3 and saw a potential candidate for our server. I don't think he ever replies to anything, so I am very unsure. An extra 25 can help, but also as you have seen it can hurt, since each player needs to be thinking strategically and not do reckless things. It is fully made to punish players for stumbling into each other. Regardless, I entirely agree, I would love a larger scale version of Stripper. The main concern is that people could tolerate me and my limited nature.

The previous message was essentially stating that I would be giving up on the Wikia and the server due to realizing I was a problem for everyone that wasn't you.

- I cannot under good faith continue editing stuff for the Wikia. After talking to Minion, numerous things have come to light which requires me to take some steps back and properly do some corrective actions for myself. My presence here is unwelcoming to other users, I am too cold and incompetent when it comes to communication with others, when I am expected to be able to provide conversation and make others feel welcome. This has become a major issue with Serafettin3, who is constantly pushed away with my inane statements. He is trying to extend his hand and communicate, yet due to my failings I am causing harm to him and anyone else who might try to join the Wikia. You are likely the only person I have not caused harm, unless you just have ignored or even internalized it.

When I started the server, I had a certain vision and hope for the design, to make a challenging based situation which we could be required to work together. It seemed like I was working to it, but it appears I was actually subtly destroying my own work on the server to the point where it is now a hollow shell of all it was. It's all dead and pointless now. There will be no more updates to the server, all I could do is further ruin what originally held potential even if it wasn't exactly enjoyable back then either. I should not have played the role of a Quake modder, doing such was just offending people who can really edit the code.

I have been touching too much Quake stuff, making others unwelcome with how much I am touching. I need to back away and let others enjoy the content. I also need to stop playing Quake in general and do other things, because the thoughts I am currently having are just too conflicting with the rest of the Wikia community. I am not sure what other things I can do, likely little, so I imagine I will spend my days mostly doing nothing but longing for an early death. Regardless, my mental well-being should not come before the rest of the community, and Minion has been able to empathize and comprehend what others are thinking about me, thus understanding in turn that I am the most unhealthy individual here.

Furthermore, it is making others uncomfortable here due to the fact that I have only touched Quake 1. They desire to strike up conversations about the other Quake games, but due to my lack of ability to compare them, I am therefore at a loss to do such. And thus am in turn distressing them further.

I have always had low self-confidence, fearing I am going to ruin things or become a bad person. So thus I have fulfilled all prophecies. This is all my fault.

I shall remain to chat on the wall, seeing that I likely am not hurting anyone as long as I remain here, but I shall no longer expand with content or do any sort of administering. I just hope that there is still some light for the Wikia and that I didn't destroy it too much. -

Above was the original message. Minion ended up talking to me again, saying that I got the wrong idea and that he feels me giving up on everything is not the solution. He feels I need to give myself free time to find myself, but doesn't want me to permanently stop everything as previously assumed.