Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20190528203427

Oh, that would definitely be nice indeed. Lately I have been feeling a bit "near-burnout" where I have started questioning if there is much of a point to continuing to explore things only to not really talk about them or do anything with the server. Hamachi means we should have something relatively stable (just don't use it for messaging, you only get the messages if both parties are online and Hamachi also has a tendency to turn the server automatically off if I am not using it). I had another guy in the servers for a short time, but he seems to have disappeared. Perhaps the offline status threw him off, who knows, we never could get a schedule going.

That sounds familiar, like you mentioned it before, but yeah. I don't really have things like that to talk about, life is pretty mundane for me. I build up a database and otherwise spend my time trying to find happiness with little success.

Well, I am an individual who is pretty much seen as insane due to a lack of need for masturbation. It just was never an urge I had, to this day I still am unable to understand what compels people to do it or what pleasure they could derive from it. My "fetishes" tend to be more mental exercises, sort of an excuse to build up an elaborate game. Only way I can explain my fascination with plague doctors and wanting to beat people with a stick.

Yes, I guess that makes sense, sex can be a personal topic. With me, I grew up in a house where my mother was very open about it and my father had done some swinging. So it is a pretty normalized topic for me, but I can understand it being taboo to some others, and I am not one who enjoys being raunchy or disrespectful in any way. Combine that with sex being seen in more of a way that others might see comedy or drama, and you see how I can write paragraphs of the porn games I explore without feeling any real shame. If anything, I wish it was talked about more, then we might get a community to make some good adult games with actual balance. So many games are killed in the first few moments by either giving you overpowered resources or just forcing some lesbian romance. Who knows, maybe it works better for the character to be asexual since I am.

All I want is to feel my way. My way is to sacrifice goats to an elder being.