Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1915529-20120712125232/@comment-3547390-20120723151633

Glad you understand, it feels like I am speaking another language with people around here. I know other students were afraid of me (the phone calls, the overheard conversations of them believing me to come in with a bomb, ect). People just don't know how to react when they were around me, they felt I was a dark person.

I have been evaluated for my "evil" thoughts several times, and yet each time they said that I am not insane and am just a growing mind. Yet the schools didn't believe the therapists opinion. It's like they think I am such a sociopath I could manipulate them to believe I was a nice person. Mary Shelly wrote Frankenstien when she was young, Stephen King's first book was on a kid shooting up his school. Yet I write a dark poem and all hell breaks loose.

That makes sense. In order to understand the good you have to also know the bad. I honestly am not trying to be dark, it's just my style. Unlike other people I am vocal about everything and thus my interests can often be seen, which as I said usually comes off dark. Perhaps it also stems from my aversion of pacifist stuff as I mentioned above, smiley faces and rainbows just don't interest me. I want action, I want violence and gore. You don't get that if everyone gets along in your stories or poems.

I would like to read your poems. That is actually something I have to do this summer, read poems. Every day I have to go to an assigned website and review the poem of the day. From that I learned I am a tough critic when it comes to poems, almost every poem was given the lowest score you could go. The only ones that went higher were simply because it was getting monotonous to write the lowest score for all. I am very harsh if someone asks me to criticize something, I take a lot into account and usually it does not even live up close to my expectations. Thus people have learned not to ask me (apparently they were unwise with this project).

Then again I feel the poems written there were by unskilled people who call themselves professional. They don't compare with Edgar Allen Poe, who knew how to write a poem (Dream-Land comes to mind, that isn't very dark but is a good piece compared to the junk I read every day).

I write poems from time to time, whenever I am relaxing usually something will come in my head and I expand it to a few pages. My criticism comes into play heavily, I use it to not fall into the traps others have and do. In the end my poems still don't compare with the likes of Poe but are better than the stuff on those websites. Unlike theirs which goes to be published on newsletters, mine are all stored away due to a lack of audience (except for perhaps my parents if it was a poem made in their honor). I guess I just make them for mainly myself though, something I look back at from time to time to read once more. Sadly some of my older works were lost on my old computer when I switched (never stored backups, I wasn't wise back then).

I can't wait to read your pieces! This will be a good escape from the happy go luckiness that I feel I am trapped in (I can never find dark enough in any form of media and it bugs me)