User blog comment:Vorknkx/Digging through the archives - creativity/@comment-3547390-20160804015331

I definitely agree with the first one, though I think that might just be my personal tastes speaking. I can't write or really focus on happy things. If it is positive, it gets boring to me, I end up feeling disinterested and annoyed. I once tried to write a happy poem, it was the most forced thing you ever heard and ended up sounding like a person about to snap from being forced to grin all the time. Positivity seems to be embraced by the masses, it is one of the reasons I tend to not share any interests with them, while I prefer anything dark and dismal.

I also strongly agree with emotion. When I used to write, the pieces I was most proud of would be those that had heavy emotions in them, and I soon started writing entirely with emotion in play. I would scream at my wife to take out the god-forsaken dog who won't stop yapping and that if she doesn't I would bust her face open. She would yell at me to try it and how she would enjoy seeing me behind bars. I would strangle the paper like I was strangling my failure of a son. I would throw up and realize that I am out of pills once again before weeping uncontrollably. That to me was the best time to write, when I would act all this out and continuously get angrier and angrier at everyone while I put words on paper. The best days to write were terrible days in my life, I can't write with positivity, I need negativity and the anger to flow through me.

I guess therefore the third is true and that I would do such to calm myself down from my anger. Indeed, flowing such emotions through paper often was entertaining and would definitely make me forget about whatever real anger I had. Wanting to bust open the lip of some guy I don't know often would get rid of me remembering whatever was even bothering me.

Heh, furthermore my defiance was indeed a driving force. Everyone was quite upset with my works, especially those with powerful emotion, and I would fight back against it by writing things with even worse emotion. A big part of me is my love of doing whatever I feel like doing, regardless of circumstances, so I often would do the improper and be the loud annoying person who refused to shut up. I still am, I just now record videos which people consider more normal. Of course, then there are times when you write databases storing your favorite llama pictures. There are many that must eventually be shared with the world.

Inspiration, I definitely think that is quite the thing too. Many of my writings came about when thinking of some central line and then following the beat of a song that was stuck in my head that night. Many of them had a Saint Anger based style, I would often write them with the intention of them being screamed from the rooftops before going into rambling insanity while trash can drums beat in the background.