Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-1496755-20180529215658

Oooh, remote signal light - sounds like a great idea. But you certainly deserve all these comforts after everything you had to endure in the previous place (how long were you there?). Speaking of relaxing atmosphere, our college dorm was right next to a river and the gentle splashing of the water was really nice and soothing. I kind of miss it.

My biggest problem are wasps. I think I have a phobia towards them.

I think I've run into similar experiences - trying to be more open with people often led to either ironic comebacks or that stare that says "you are making me uncomfortable with your weirdness, please go away". And, of course, that invariable "crazy guy" reputation.

That was the kind of popularity I dreaded, so I did my best to keep a low profile and not attract unwanted attention. I hated it when peopel asked me to "say/do something funny" as if I was an automated entertainment service or something. Cases of people hating me were extremely rare, and they weren't "hate" as much as some sort of rivalry - e.g. when we were dividing ourselves into "gangs" in my grandma's neighborhood, the leader of the opposing "gang" almost loathed me. This rivalry went on for a few years, occasionally escalating to near-violence situations. No one was hurt for real, luckily.

I know the feeling of being an alien. There have been those days when I stared out the window and couldn't stop thinking "I'm not supposed to be here."

Sadly, most people assumed I played violent stuff for the sake of the violence. This only served to reinforce the "crazy guy" reputation, of course - what kind of normal person likes violent stuff? And since gaming back then wasn't as mainstream as it is today, this also gave me quite a bit of "nerd" reputation too.

Heh, yeah, I avoid the really growling stuff too. Can't find much fuin in it, though some fans say this is the only "true" metal. But i think they're just trying to be elitist, which is kind of sad.