Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-3547390-20180728204653

Hey, that also means they need you to the point that you know you won't be removed any time soon. You have a stable career at least, which is always a good thing to have.

I tend to hate just having a presence somewhere without speaking; it makes me feel more lonely and isolated than if I was just left on my own. One thing bothersome about life is how little I like and how repetitive things can get if I keep doing the things I like. Conversation is useful since you don't know what the other will say, providing a more varied experience, granted you can actually hold a conversation and they don't just talk about things that you cannot connect with and thus cannot really offer much to say. Listening makes me feel undervalued, like my presence doesn't actually matter, and so I end up feeling like I could disappear without being noticed. I am usually right.

Usually I cut ties with people who treat me like entertainment (or they cut ties with me, usually because I am depressing to talk to), I just can't handle it after a certain point. I don't have any friends from my childhood, I have completely cut ties with anyone from my high school days. If I had to say the friend I have had the longest, I think it would be you, though I admit it gets lonely when I can expect a message back about once a day. It just makes the rest of the time pretty lonely. I am pretty insane, don't worry. Outside of you, I have Dominus, who genuinely likes me but is also usually busy or just too depressed to bother, meaning it is pretty unpredictable when I talk to him and it is usually once a week if the week is good. I have a girl Dominus introduced me to, she holds care but doesn't really connect as she is scared away by me mostly, so she talks to him and will occasionally say something to me (once every few days) before avoiding me once more. We got Rottweiler, but he tends to disappear and send ambiguous messages on rare occasions.

I also got involved with some discord groups, but usually ended up being too much drama for people to the point that I was no longer welcome beyond with a few outliers, who kept contact with me. One groups is mostly just out of concern and care, so they like to make sure I am safe, but otherwise could care less about me to the point it feels isolating. I got a person from another group, but they hold more social anxiety than even Dominus, meaning they break down a lot and disappear for weeks on end. Needless to say, I don't really have anyone I can rely on talking to consistently, which is depressing since I need someone to help cut down the amount of time I twiddle my thumbs at work.

I am as far from the social norm as you get there. I am extremely emotional to the point I am often labeled as pathetic by individuals. I wear my feelings on my sleeve a lot and I am known to let things bother me easily. It feels rather... isolating... when it feels like everyone else is able to cope by totally disconnecting from everyone else.

I can't particularly praise 1991 myself. Lacrimosa's first album was that year and Seele in Not is an absolutely amazing song, but otherwise I just don't have much music from that year. Metallica released the Black Album, which I like most of the songs off of, but it is more because they created decent songs than anything groundbreaking. I prefer a bit more risk and intensity, the Black Album was good but at the sake of playing it safe, which means it is a bit of a low point for me. The 90s has some really good stuff, though it is too spotty to really pinpoint like I could 2001-2005. I might also suggest that 2018 is a really horrible year; every new album from even bands I liked in the past were massively disappointing. I might also be inclined to say that 2000 and 2006, while outliers, hold some real quality stuff as well. After Forever's best album was in 2000, while Doom VS was in 2006.

I also will say that this period held no guarantee of a quality album from quality bands, After Forever's Decipher was 2001 but was really boring. Lacrimosa also hit a bit of a slow point around 2004. It just means the magnum opus is bound to appear at some point during it, even if there is a low point as well, and that after 2005 things will start dropping in quality to the point where by 2018 it is really boring. Illdisposed is a bit different. 1997 was definitely their magnum opus, 2004-2006 they were good but not as grand. The big thing with Illdisposed is that they got REALLY generic in 2008 and have been stuck that way ever since. This is the best they did, really playing it safe, and it isn't something I would generally bring up as it isn't that exciting.

Another band that doesn't follow that rule is Snakeskin, a side project of Lacrimosa. It is really... different... and I don't expect many to grasp it. I wasn't a big fan of their 2004 album as it was extremely repetitive, but by 2006 it was a lot more to my liking. I will also say Nine Inch Nails was definitely best in the Downward Spiral and previous era, everything since has lacked the emotion that had. Plus if I had to choose a Disturbed album, it would be Indestructible which was 2008. So I have four artists which are a bit of the exception to the rule, but otherwise it is highly followed.

I am glad, I didn't know if you even listened, since I never saw mention. I usually explore an entire discography; I have a lot of time at work and so spend most of it just going through the entire list (I have recently decided to stop bothering so much with demos however as the songs on them tend to be very flawed and boring, meaning I just bother with EPs/bonus tracks and full albums). I just don't have the attention span or dedication to do it normally; it mostly is something to do at work during all the time I have nothing else. It usually is extremely boring and, depending on what I am trying, stressful due to just how bland it can get. If I didn't have this opportunity at work, I probably wouldn't get new music and just listen to what I have. There is no way I could sit through 5+ albums in a discography of a band I am not even sure I like or will ever be good again otherwise.

I don't recall introducing that policy... if you mean level names, I base it entirely off how it is spelt in-game, it just is hard for most people to differentiate capital and lowercase letters in Quake as they look very similar.

I just am not sure what separation would need to be mentioned. The game plays entirely the same on the normal difficulties; only Nightmare changes gameplay mechanics in Quake. The difference is of course the fast monsters like attribute, meaning Shamblers and Ogres fire faster. Ammo differences don't matter, they are always the same. Monsters don't respawn. Cheats still work. So outside of a line mentioning the source code (if you note, we aren't focused highly on entity references or other technical data in general), I am not sure what we are missing.