Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20190208151239

Quite true sadly, I wish I was better at endurance, at least to the point of it not affecting me. I think a lot has to do with the noise levels around me. When nobody ever shuts up and you don't get time alone, that gets mentally exhausting as an introverted individual. The hardest part of my job is enduring people talking. The hardest part of my home life is enduring loud bangs and constant noise due to one of the residents being unable to cope without constant noise. The only escape is going for walks, which I can't do in cold weather without risking a cold, and results in sore legs or getting attacked by bugs anyway. I would be a happier person if left alone more often if I am right. But, as I am frequently told by my family, it is entirely normal to endure bombardments of noise and I need to learn to suck it up. I just don't know how, all it does it make me feel more suicidal.

Most passive mediums I cannot really hold much passion for. I can read and experience comic books, for example, but I don't really hold much passion for them in the way I would for video games. Actual novels are an impossibility with the amount of noise around me as a general rule. Movies and tv shows tend to be difficult to sit through, I never really connect with them and they tend to just be there. Visual novels are much the same, stories just don't do much for me. Video games are my only real way of appreciating things, well that and music, mainly due to the latter holding emotional intensity.

I want to say Unreal did something similar with explosions, making them 3d models. But yes, it seems to have reverted back pretty quickly.

If I get a cold, it doesn't go away quickly, and that of course means less recordings. Which is sad when I am already juggling only being able to record on certain days for only a couple hours with the hope that I don't feel too miserable during those hours. Due to the world around me, I am not given much freedom in regards to doing things that require silence or my attention. Needless to say, even if it wasn't recording, I couldn't be writing up detailed articles on most days.