Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20190808122820

Oh, you know me, I am possibly even more paranoid about even touching "new" titles that don't fall under the category of porn. New in my case being anything I haven't already touched and wasn't made for DOS. Sort of how I end up torturing myself in a search for gameplay in an avenue where people don't care about gameplay.

I remember when I started mapping for Doom 3. I still feel the editor for it, GTK Radiant, is one of the best editors out there. I absolutely loathe Quake mapping; THRED is unstable, most are DOS or early windows only, Trenchbroom is highly clunky as it tries doing everything in the 3d view, and Quake Army Knife is just an overwhelming mess. None have felt as good or fluid as GTK Radiant. Note this is likely because most are old editors... but that doesn't explain why I find Unity and Unreal Engine just as clunky due to a focus on dragging in resources.

Of course, messing around with things in Doom 3 is precisely why I started disliking it. My father would play deathmatches with me every day, he swears I stopped because I got tired of being beaten, but the truth was just that as I tried recreating E1M1 and saw that 3/4 Imps in an area would cause the game to slow to a crawl, I just lost my interest in the game. I can justify Quake having less enemies than Doom since the latter was just simple point and shoot, while Quake has more intelligent AI with things such as fast moving fiends. But Doom 3 has no real reason to be lower than Quake, to rely on monster closets to handle graphics. Of course, these days it probably wouldn't lag like that, unless it is sheer engine limitations. Definitely intrigued to try it again just because it was my origin to FPS games, to metal, and still had one of the best coops with Last Man Standing's wave maps even if it lagged like crazy.

The early stuff can be harder for me for sure, I question if it was 2010 I started or 2009, and I am not sure exactly when Dope and the others were added. But by 2013 it started getting more passionate and memorable for me, so it becomes easier and easier to remember when I added something.

I showcased many things that I listened to frequently during different periods. Moth was one of the songs I listened to heavily in 2014, when I realized how unpopular I was online and how I was apparently cursed to get people to hate me. 2015 makes me remember researching random jungle parasites for some reason, plus the various disputes I got into. 2016 was when I was new to my job and would be taken on the field, so I would end up stuck in the car listening to music a lot, which meant Megaherz's 5 a lot. 2017 brings back the memories of hunting for songs and just going through band after band. 2018 and 2019 are very similar, I seek that which allows me to envision the world of headpats, of a world where I can cover my face in sorrow.

I wish you luck indeed, it has been quite crazy lately between dealing with students and now this, hopefully it calms down after this.