Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-1496755-20180207220244

Misunderstandings happen - it's okay. I am really glad you are making steps to overcome this OCD thing because, to be honest, it scares me at times. I can see that you feel trapped, except that it's a trap I can't help you get out of, because it's out of reach. And that makes it even scarier to watch. I was worried you'd be stuck, but if you can just skip the whole thing, that could be the solution we need. You know, there actually is a way to see the whole story without actually playing the game - I've been thinking of mentioning this for quite some time (but didn't, mostly because I didn't want it to sound like I don't have faith in your abilities). This could be the way to go and get some closure with this whole thing.

I suppose the issue here is perfectionism. It doesn't let you leave unfinished business, even if it tortures you. One more inner demon to fight, I suppose...

Yeah, while I have a fair number of friends (especially considering how introverted I tend to be), there is always a certain distance. Or a barrier. But not here - here I feel more relaxed and free to discuss things. The distance/barrier is absent. And I enjoy having such a place. It's liberating and cleansing.

There is hope, we are capable of evolving and tackling our problems. When I look back at myself - 10, 15 or even 20 years ago - I can recognize how many problems I used to have. I used to do and say some pretty crazy and disturbing stuff. But over time I learned how to manage all this and become something else... can't say for sure if something better, but at least different. Even being here is changing me in some ways and I am sure you (and Raadec) contributed to this as well. I hope I can contribute towards your change in some way.