Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-1496755-20191210133959

Pain is like gravity - you can’t hide from it, no matter where you go and how far you run. It will always find you, and come at full force. It’s something I learned over the many years of being a slave to my deeply-held fears and guilt over vague things. I may have devised 1001 ways to hide and disappear, but ultimately none of them worked. Sure, you are free to declare everything dead and stop, but this won’t give you relief. It will only sever your connection to one of the few things that ‘’can’’ make you feel a little better. If Minion is doing something that bothers you, just tell him - he seems decent enough to understand and take the necessary steps. Surely you remember our old streaming days - you expressed your hate for spoilers and for being rushed and I stopped doing that. Clear and simple. And then we were both better off. If you’re worried you might offend someone - you shouldn’t. People forgive.

Yes, you are very focused on a specific area and haven’t touched a lot of other things… so what? We’re not in a competition, we’re not fighting over prizes, titles or status. We’re doing something we enjoy, something that we can contribute to. I can understand, to some extent, how you feel - my tormentor used to be gaming magazines. They were interesting to read, but at the same time it was depressing to see all these amazing things I couldn’t possibly touch, usually due to system requirements, or unavailability in this part of the world. It is an unpleasant feeling for sure. Luckily, Minion isn’t made of paper - you can try talking to him. And I’m fairly sure he would miss you. He does not seem like the kind of guy that vies for positions and tries to supplant others. I doubt he really wants you gone. His behavior is more like concealed worship of you than a ploy to remove you.

You know that I can relate to many of the things you’ve been through. The only exception is the pity - I never got any. People tended to be either openly mocking or plain cruel once they sensed my weaknesses. This only aggravated my fears and insecurities, but (as stated above), trying to hide did not work. There is no shelter from a wound you carry in yourself. One way or another, you have to find a way to be able to live with it and function, as much as possible. I am convinced you have a lot more endurance than you give yourself credit for. Over the last 7 years you’ve demonstrated more strength than many “normal” people could. The strongest steel is forged in the hottest fire. And pain is very much like a fire.

You can say that you give up. But I’m not giving up on YOU ;)