Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20190505045909

Good luck indeed...

Yeah, I should probably do something else. It just feels like every attempt at breaking routine just ends up with me miserable due to it not being what I am looking for. Sometimes it feels like the best visions are constrained to text adventures.

Before I rambled about adult games, so I should say one of my biggest gripes with the genre is how it just lacks consequence or makes sex mandatory. I like avoidance and try to make that my overall goal, so making it necessary to continue kills a lot of the point. Similarly, if each event ends up with nothing really happening, it ends up feeling rather pointless. Even if it is slavery or something that makes life harder, there should be something more than a simple cutscene before I redo a fight. Clothing damage shouldn't be fixed by winning each fight or by using an almost unlimited supply of healing potions.

See, Oblivion has this issue with fatigue that I cannot seem to figure out. Randomly you will just pass out permanently and be unable to wake. Or it will crash in some specific place and you will be unable to really do said action, making it feel a lot more linear than it should be. Oblivion is pretty much a great concept in terms of gameplay functionality, but the problem is that the little flaws aren't just minor grievances, but things that will essentially get in the way almost every moment you try to play. So then you try to play Skyrim, which is better in some ways, but also far more limited in other ways.

The sex system in Oblivion is interestingly enough a bit better for someone who wants to avoid rape. Skyrim is very... scripted... in its approach, meaning that you are essentially forced into a scene and then that scene will occur. Note this means you can escape a dungeon, only to have some enemy have sex with you that doesn't even exist in the area. This can result in you being sent to a void, forcing you to reload, or being sent to the middle of the world which ends up being just as bad with falling damage. So the problem there is that it feels like you are unable to really avoid the events, it will just occur regardless of your actions, which ends up killing much of the point. Note the far better mod for a world of rape, Slaverun, is stuck in perpetual beta. It also is highly limited as it can only be used in certain areas, as opposed to the wilderness, and stops all character movement so that you don't even have the illusion of avoidance. There is another one, Scent of Sex, which works a bit better while also seeming less responsive. Of course, there doesn't seem to be much logic behind it like visibility, meaning you end up with opponents running halfway across the world to have sex when you were trying to stealth, making stealth pretty worthless. There is also the issue that animation issues seem common, so you need to allow a lot more than you would like. Plus if you end up with a NPC pursuing you, it often means they will just shimmy with you while you walk across the map. There just isn't a good balance between these two, something Oblivion offered at the least. I miss people running up to you, being able to knock you down, and steal your goods in a way that felt relatively natural (note you just had to set up things right or it would work like Scent of Sex, since the most recent update sort of messed things up with weird dialog messages). So, needless to say, I am stuck between two games that also fail to offer a functional experience. And adult games tend to get frustrating as most are Japanese titles with either censorship or generic H events with little to no repercussions.

Random rant over, but yes, Rosenrot is a much darker album. I don't really equate albums to times like you, but just stuff like Spring shows a sort of darkness that Rammstein has never hit before or since.

I have anxiety issues in real life. I have hurt myself trying to get away from people, I can't be around large groups at all. I talk as minimally as I can. Dominus and me are definitely less social, though while situations make him social, I could never hope to be social. No matter what, I stand out in a crowd as being the "crazy" or odd one, and trying to talk to me would only confirm it. I am not really someone you go to for normal conversation.