Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20190814001952

I would disagree about being an outcast being the reason to gravitate to the stuff I do. It is more that I seek things with emotional intensity, a sort of deep passion, and have explored more as I have gone along. I think it more likely that I am an outcast BECAUSE of the way I am, as in I am naturally depressive and enjoy negativity. That just goes against the "upbeat" nature of most, plus tends to highly bother normal individuals. Combine that with a complete lack of relation in regards to interests; I am cynical about most topics and mostly care about that which most others don't even want to put effort into knowing, and you got me being a person that just doesn't have the ability to socialize with many.

I should mention I don't specifically look for darkness or heaviness, I don't get some feeling that I am listening to "this dark thing nobody else could handle because it is so evil". I feel such a mindset is more for the Nu Metal scene, where individuals try to out-brutalize each other, or entry level metal for those that want to be even more hardcore. In fact, people have been surprised with just how mellow my stuff can get, it often is a cacophony of sounds, a vista ranging from intense passion to dying light. Could be seen as classical to some, except it is gothic, which has an entirely different ambience and focus; this explains my total dislike for classical music.

Oh, same here, I never have had anyone to really detail my music out like this with. I don't interact with people in real life, people often see me as the person who is going to shoot up a place due to being afraid of my negativity and my reclusive nature. I hate the presence of people as a general rule, too overwhelming, and they talk about things I don't relate to. I found it odd how normal people cannot grasp DSBM and the agony wails, describing it as some sort of hiss.

Actually, I find rock completely annoying, at least classic rock like Van Halen. I think that might be one of the most annoying bands out there, either that or AC/DC. I hear no riffs that connect with anything, the voices are constant screeching, the drums are too repetitive, and it just is a highly unappealing sound. I am not really one who can cross from metal to rock, at least outside of German stuff, so I feel as alienated as if it was pop songs. I also can't stand Iron Maiden at all, far too high pitched vocals and generic riffs.

I tend to listen to my music mostly at work. It is useful to drown out people around me, since I am in an open area with just a cubicle separating me, so I just crank my headphones and drown out all noise. It is good being the second in command's son, I get away with some great liberties, and one is freedom to listen to pornogrind even in an area where people can hear it. Granted I don't generally bother with pornogrind due to its lack of real value outside of being a meme. I tend to use that time to seek out and try new music, which is how I find so much new stuff. I then listen to the music I know I enjoy on the car ride home, I got a giant boombox (by giant, I mean 4-5 feet, pretty much a DJ bar speaker) right behind the seats of the truck, and luckily my father doesn't mind me listening to my music, so I get a good 30-40 minutes of listening uninterrupted per day.

Yeah, I never have been one for listening to soundtracks as part of a playlist. It just isn't the same when connected to a game, maybe it is because most of the titles I really like were more ambient than anything, or maybe it is because of my general dislike for songs without vocals. I find instrumentals mostly boring, they just feel like they are lacking an important element to the emotional intensity.

August is definitely a slow month. I wax and wane with my recording abilities, I am hoping for more 100 degree days since that is when everyone else falls asleep due to the extreme heat, allowing me to record uninterrupted. In any event, I have been able to tackle quite a bit... the problem being that it is all Multiplayer, thus meaning it is all essentially worthless.