Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-1496755-20191211084257

I know you often see yourself as weak, unhealthy and a source of drama, but there always is another point of view. This might sound strange to you, but, over the years, I’ve seen you more as a symbol of strength, rather than weakness. A person who can endure and press on in the face of adversity. And this always felt like a small (but significant) beacon of hope, especially during darker times (like the end of 2013 and the entirety of 2014). I always told myself “If Death can handle all the crap in his life, then surely I can handle it too.” That’s why it’s really distressing to see you break down like this. Remember that you can be a pillar to someone else, even if you feel like your foundation is broken. It’s just one of the crazy things about life, I guess.

I was looking through some of your older videos a while ago (like the famous “chased by tornadoes” episode) and one of the things I noticed is that you sounded happier back then. And in my memories you were happier. So this got me thinking that perhaps you need a little variety. A little break from the routine. What this break will be is entirely up to you, of course. Like if you’ve secretly wanted to revive “Punching Barons”, this could be a great opportunity to do so. Whatever you do, it would be a breath of fresh air - I know from experience that breaking routines can have a healing effect.

Hmmm, I am not aware of the connotations you allude to, but if you wish to share, you can - on the Discord. It’s a more private environment and you can be more open.

I find it hard to believe that everything is futile. I see futility as failure to achieve results, and the Wiki is one big testament to hard work creating something significant. Invested effort without actual results. There were many times in my life when I wanted to do something and never got around to it, regardless of how much I desired it. This has never been the case here - when we resolve to do something, we do it. And it’s available for the whole world to see (even if the number of interested people isn’t so big). As small as it may seem, it is not futile.