Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-1496755-20180206222031

Oh, I'm sure you'll be done long before us. I've got way too many layers of old habits, traditions and plain old conservative thinking to get through, before I can enact any real change around here...

There is a CPU called Coffee Lake? Sounds weird.

I think the real issue is that you are made miserable by rules you have imposed on yourself. I realize you are not always able to control it, so there isn't much I can do to help. It's easy to just say "get a grip and don't do X and Y", but I know how impossible it can be at times, considering my own crushes with obsessive thoughts in the distant and recent past. If I knew how it works, I would have found some way to crack it... but alas, the human mind is a maze we're not meant to master.

As an outside observer, I can say this - you may deal with lotso f horrible stuff, but you often have fun too. Even with all the terrible 1994 WADs, surreal Aftershock test maps and convoluted Hexen puzzles, you were still finding some glimmer of enjoyment... in your unique crazy way.

These days I've been doing some soul cleansing too (which means playing ancient DOS stuff) and I often do self-imposed challenges, despite all the aggravation they cause. It's just something that we do, without having any idea why we do it. And perhaps we do it exactly for this reason - to find out why we do it. The ultimate recursive causality.

Heh, I don't know if I'd be approved for that Beta thing. Plus, I am really worried if I'd make a good tester, if I can communicate properly, generate good bug reports and so on... there is a pretty high chance I'd fail and get kicked out :P