Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-3547390-20180718203133

Yeah, I guess the glitchy nature of the database means it isn't exactly the exciting alternative people would reach out for. Sounds a bit isolating to be the only one in your age group in your workplace, I guess I could say I am rather similar, since it is rare for someone to make it into a career at my age. It feels like everyone else is still in college. Ah well, I can't relate to my age group, or any age group for that matter.

Elementary school, I am not really sure why I was so isolated. I was constantly targeted and the enemy in those schools, yet to this day I can't even say why that was the case. By high school, I was very much grounded in my metal music and playing older games, when I started high school I probably was limiting myself to just Atari stuff. With how I am about conversations about the stuff, I didn't really like talking to people about games. My music tastes were different with very minor overlap. I could have the rare Disturbed song, Disturbed seems pretty popular with heavier listeners, but while I found them decent, there was never anything I would sing songs of praise about. Even if we shared interests, I wouldn't know how to talk about it, plus they would be embarrassed to be connected with me as I was the maniacal one who would headbang when we got free time.

Nu Metal in general is just something I tend to not be big with. Especially if that band is Evanescence, something about that band in particular grates me to no end. Probably the vocals, I really hate boisterous vocals.

I don't get the fashion trends either. Imagine having a way you needed to look to play Quake. It just makes little sense for there to be a connection between your appearance and the music you listen to. I mean, I guess you could say I "dress in black" because I have a black t-shirt on at almost all times since I got into the habit of using them so people didn't question if I was wearing the same shirt over and over. I personally am not an appearance person, so I just wear what is comfortable. Long hair is highly uncomfortable, I have sensitive ears. You know, all of this is a bit ironic, since metal is supposed to be seen as a culture defying social norms. How can you really be doing that if you are all insisting on dressing the same and acting the same? I guess this is why I have such weird overlaps, I don't have the insecurities of something "not being metal enough" or not fitting my image as I don't try to have an image.

There really is no connect between my mood and the music I listened to, except that I am pessimistic and the music I listen to tends to not be happy. My mother once told me that I must listen to the songs because they speak to how I feel, but it just doesn't make sense. I just like the intensity I feel from the music, I can appreciate it as a form of art, one interactive and invoking of passion. I have evolved, but listening to the old stuff doesn't really offer much in the way of memories. Listening based on mood sounds so normal, my father has said similar stuff, and I just can't grasp that. Perhaps because my life is so monotonous that I don't really have varying moods besides "wish to commit suicide" and "collapsing under mental strain to the point you can't even think of exerting enough energy to kill yourself".

I am not a coder at all. I have bits of experience with things, but no real proficiency anywhere. Quake is probably the greatest effort I have done to modifying scripts, most just use editors. But you are very right, the brilliance of coding is that you get the freedom to do some insane things. Note on the server page I mentioned how I made a Shrek enemy. That was entirely from my insanity and determination; though it didn't take much coding as I just changed the death message.

Sadly not, one day there may be an expansion. I didn't think we would get so involved with being able to be a monster after the horrible Be Your Own Monster mod. That was allegedly going to do something similar, except with a lot less Monsters, only to turn out to be entirely broken to the point you barely got any difference between players. The Scrag was a Demolitions Expert for some reason, the Shambler and Fiend only had the difference of how much health they could have, and there was some weird limitation of just needing to use the Shotgun while not giving you any new attacks. I am really glad we got a proper version after that disappointing mess.

I agree, no game is really complete until you have some giant spider roaming around. I definitely prefer the Psionic Slug, mainly due to custom sounds and death message making it more of its own unique enemy, plus the whole lack of challenge thing with the spider. Regardless, it is open-source, which means it is likely some person added it to their map at some point. Even more, once I find that mod I hope to eventually find, I can add this as a new monster to include in the summon swarms.

We need to find that nightmare mod eventually. Sadly, when it comes to mods, I am quickly learning that people don't really like difficulty for some reason. It feels like people are more apt to go where things are easier and offer some fancy gimmick (see Brutal Doom, see every mod adding "companions" or NPC teammates that kill things for you, see every overpowered weapon that can kill Shub-Niggurath in a single shot) over some painful hardcore mod. I really wonder why we deviate so much from normality in this aspect; I rather make every game into some evil roguelike where it becomes fun to die. I remember a Doom PWAD where you could multiply the monsters by 10. We need that for Quake, then we need them to cause 4 times the normal damage while removing powerups from the game.

In other news, we hit 1600 pages. We did it in the most anti-climatic of ways, through a few entirely broken mods. Shovelware, no guarantee anything will work!