Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20171111143841/@comment-3547390-20180529223209

I think I was there for... seven, eight years? I think when I started on the Wikia, it was near the end of the stay at my mother's. The first videos on my Youtube channel with the werewolf mask were when I lived there.

I have a bit of a phobia with wasps as well. And bees. I freeze whenever either is around me. Oddly enough, the one thing I don't really have a fear of are spiders. I lived in a basement for years, spiders and me lived in co-existence, and I got used to baby spiders dropping on me. It is quite curious to see my father paranoid of them.

My biggest problem is that when I try to be more open, I am not taken seriously. People think half of what I say is a joke because it is too difficult to believe, they don't wish to believe. Who wishes to believe that I can really do nothing?

I have a... unique mannerism... that just draws people to me. I can't really stay hidden, even if I wished to. In real life, it is easier however, since people assume I am a heavy recluse and so respect me by leaving me alone.

Exactly. Most don't really understand that. I have looked up in the sky quite a bit and just waited for some really drunk aliens to apologize for forgetting me all this time.

Since I live entirely on old-school stuff and hate talking about modern gaming, it isolated me further. Talk to anyone about gaming, they want to talk about the latest games they love. Touching obscure Quake shovelware comes a bit at the cost that I have little to converse with other people about as a general rule. Not many people exactly know about Q2. Combine that with my violent poetry and my music and I just have little to relate to others with. None of what I listen to is what anyone else knows, nor what they really like.

I am actually a fan of growling, though it needs to be on the deeper end. I find higher pitched male vocals to be really annoying, such as power metal and even black metal, and find growls to be a much better level for my enjoyment. Not sure what I like about it, but it just sounds better in my ears to really whiny vocals. I don't see anything else as not "true" metal, I love soprano vocals as well. I just find most metal... generic... and uninspired. There is just no emotion behind it. It is either pop or "brutal". It is rare to hear something I actually like.