Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20181031195343

So I have decided to stick to 1440p for the time being. 4k is a jump, but the latest graphics cards just don't have good averages for 60+ FPS on the latest games. No, I don't even touch the latest games, but I like that potential.

Pretty much the problem. I checked out a Minecraft mod recently. It wasn't bad in concept, but the problem is that in execution you just got too many rewards to the point where it sort of negated the challenge of finding stuff. Yes, sandboxes provide options, but making it too easy and accessible results in the balance falling. Skyrim has some good hardcore mods at least (before you make a joke, I don't mean the porn), allowing me to feel like a standard villager that gets beaten by almost anything unless I am quick and strategic. Of course it only works until Steam updates, which is sort of my main gripe with it. I just hate the updates (there are ways to prevent it, but I hate the whole principle of the thing) and the inability to revert unless you backed up your executable.

I would be happy about no new content in some MMO, since they usually love to push that content by allowing people to get to it faster. You know, rushing through all prior content to fight one boss a million times. That is sort of the problem with MMOs, you always hit a sort of repetitive end-game that was never worth the pointless grind, often consisting of reading online guides because otherwise people wouldn't like your build and spoiling the strategy so you can rush through things as fast as possible and do it again.

Nothing spells gritty realism more than "My mother was raped by the guy before me. She was also raped by the other guys I faced. You know, my mother got raped a lot. I know this because somehow I know of my mother's sexual encounters. This of course suggests incest, an ever increasing normalized fetish, and one I ironically had to face. For the latest one to rape my mom was myself. And now I must fight myself, beat myself up so I can never rape again. For the streets will never be safe while I roam and rape my mother in many different costumes to appear to look like other guys. For I staged the events and was always the rapist. I am the mastermind and I have found me, and therefore I have solved this caper and the only thing left is to dispense justice. But how can I dispense justice when I am tired from dispensing my seed inside my mother? Perhaps I should just rest... oh fuck, the terrorists are attacking. I can't let them have sex with my mother! She is mine to rape, not theirs, as such freedom is the right belonging to America! But oh no, the government funded the terrorists, that means they want dibs on my mother as well. Not if I can help it, for I am a modern Rambo, a modern military man who totally represents normal values such as raping your own mother". If that isn't the plot of one of the Call of Duties, color me surprised.

And I thought it a pain when I had Spanish class and had to use alt codes to write the annoying additional letters. I like the American keyboard, it provides me with the ability to write fan fiction about raping mothers with the greatest of ease.

Precisely my gripe with a lot of that stuff. Sure, the detail could add something, but in most cases it is just fluff. On top of a bad map, it does nothing. I rather have fun gameplay than drawn out cutscenes and fancy gimmicks. You know another problem of fancy gimmicks? It is up to the developer to introduce them. Once I saw a Thief fan mission which had a frustrating puzzle, all because you had to throw a hammer at a statue to break it. Statues were always solid, there was no clue this would do anything, yet somehow you were supposed to get that answer. Once again, reasons I hate puzzles.

Oh trust me, I know that too well. People rush through the game to the point that all the lower level areas are expected to be flown through. And the game itself doesn't help. Extra XP weekend, quest rewards that boost your XP, XP pellets mailed to you because you reached a certain level... and the alternative is usually a poorly balanced situation of enemies pretty much one-shotting you because you didn't manage stats right. This is why RPGs frustrate me, I hate that I can get myself in such a rut that the game becomes literally impossible to beat. Sure, you can run out of ammo in a FPS, but you still got a melee sidearm which will make the fights ridiculously harder but still possible.

Oh, I saw that one a while back. There are plenty of insane Skyrim mods out there.

What are you saying? You aren't? I thought you were supposed to be a European socialist :P

I am surprised I beat some of the insane situations given to me there, especially since yes, my history with flight sims is not good. I definitely would like to organize stuff like that again. Really, I am up for playing most things, I just need someone stringing me along for the ride so that I don't get bored. I think that is a bit of a common problem with me, Doom sort of ended when you stopped commentating on videos and they just became "another to grind through". Quake is slowing up due to the lack of server activity or general interest for maps. Even Unreal and Thief stopped for similar reasons. I can go a while without people, but eventually it starts to get exhausting, and the purpose becomes less clear without some form of communication or greater purpose. Yes, I am archiving experiences, but at what point does that exploration in the first place start to lose its meaning?

So yes, if we can get streaming going again there is plenty I would gladly do. I just need that motivator; I like to experience things with people. Same reason the server would help with Quake, it would bring back that motivator, since I would be doing it to get more content for a server we could do stuff on. I guess you could say people are sort of a double-edged sword, they motivate me while also being able to kill my enthusiasm, since the latter can happen if I get rushed a lot. Yet, without an audience or community, things just lose their purpose. Same reason I stuck around here and continued editing, but left other communities.

It doesn't help that most don't like to think or really talk about things. So I am at the whims of the rare ones like you to give me energy. So a stream really would be perfect, if we can keep things less rushed than we did with Hexen (which is another title I should try to tackle, plus I wouldn't even mind doing more Doom PWADs). So yes, you getting the freedom to do things is pretty key here. The server could be hosted at almost any time, especially on weekends when I am not limited by time at all, and recordings could be during my late afternoon hours.

There is so much to do, I just need that spark, and sadly it is a spark that I can't really generate on my own.