Thread:Deathstalker666/@comment-1496755-20180827202615/@comment-3547390-20190531024723

Today I learned that Children in East Asia have a prank where they stick their fingers in someone's anus. Definitely a different culture over there.

I agree entirely about this being one of the good places to come to, I don't really relate with people and have few topics I can really discuss, so a place where we have maintained conversation for several years is pretty impressive.

Yeah, I know what you mean about burnout as well. I have my periods where I will get incentive to get a lot done, then I will feel like not really doing anything. Lately I have gone into overdrive with the Wikia, last year in particular was all the reforms for custom content and expanding with more than a hundred mods and maps. But yeah, with the lack of server stuff going on, it is starting to look less appealing. It doesn't help that Quake just doesn't offer much in regards to replayability, you can only go through the levels so many times, since they have a pretty standard procedure especially for 100% completion. If I had to say one thing I really miss from Thief, it would be that, the ability to interact with the environment enough to vary it up. Thief has plenty of literal junk that may seem worthless at first, but then provide useful distractions or can be stacked to get around stationary guards, leading to entirely new ways to do things. This is what I feel is sort of missing from your average shooter, you are always pointing at a target until they die, and while challenge is definitely more replayable, it still lacks that feeling that things will really be different in any way.

This seems to be a bit of a problem I find in general lately. Even if the adult game offers more the mindset I am looking for, it just means little if the game is the same every time. It feels like media to be consumed, to be looked at and thrown away. Quake is of course a bit better since we got cooperative, but at the end of the day I still will say it is limited. I guess this is why Duke 3d got praise, of course I feel Duke 3d is just as limited as the interactivity was more scripted sequences or just some flashy object as opposed to something that could alter the environment and offer additional routes. Procedural generation definitely would be the way to go, but it is so rare to find an adult game with that, especially one that isn't text or has succubus women who have zero consequences.

My job is perfect in the sense that it is very laid back and the people are great, but that is pretty much the weakness. Much of the time I am trying to figure out how to kill almost an entire day when I barely have any hobbies. Can't really look up about games as I would just spoil them, there isn't much to look up about stuff I have already done. I have music, sure, but I have explored a lot of what I like and so finding new stuff can be a sort of lengthy struggle. I have tried reading, I find it very mundane and frustrating. Comics usually confuse me, plus from my experience with early Marvel I can tell you I am not really a fan of superheroes, due to the hero always coming back after a death or whatnot no real stakes ever exist, making it feel more mundane. Plus you start realizing just how rehashed a lot of it is. So yeah, I just don't really know what to do with a computer for several hours as I barely have anything I enjoy these days. Then I come home and live around my family, so I end up not wanting to record most weekdays since they make too much noise, trying to get as much done on weekends. Of course, I am not sure I would want to devote myself to endless hours of recording and Quake, since I even find myself getting worn out after two or three hours of it. The problem is I just don't have that alternative I really can get into.

Definitely intriguing, since then we are focusing on avoidance. I am not so sure it would work with Quake though, otherwise I could do it with monsters chasing me in the maps. I think it has something to do with the mechanics being based around you fighting, you only really feel powerless if you are going out of the way to highly nerf yourself. Thus the stakes never really feel as high. One of the best things for Quake was E2M6 shotgun start, just because of how rough that can be and how survivalist it can get. You really can see in my video how I had to get a lot down just to get to the point where I could pull it off. Sadly that is something most Quake levels won't offer since they are standalones and whatnot. Add to the fact that Quake levels are pretty short, the stakes aren't really as high as say Thief levels, where you could spend literal hours in a single level and a blunder can lead to disaster.

I should mention I have found a great game. Fully 3d, random generation, and focusing on roguelike action. When you die, you need to play as someone else and hopefully save them. Of course, there is sort of one big flaw with it. as great as it appears. Mainly... it was started in 2018 and stopped two days later and the only thing released was a very basic character customizer. Nobody appears to have ever supported it since nothing ever showed up, so it is one of those completely dead games with very little to show for it. But the idea was somewhat there, in fact I am really liking the idea of death resulting in you needing to save yourself on another character. Now I would love that in some game, that sounds like exactly what I am looking for... it sounds like over ambition is what caused them to collapse, but their first post literally says that they got the foundation down. Tell me reality doesn't exist to mock me.

It is rather weird how it came about with me, since when I was young it was the only real censored thing. I could play Thief or violent games, but nudity was off the table, even if I did manage to find one or two Thief levels that have nude mods. Mostly I remember dragging the naked person in there everywhere just to expose them to others, since the lady was the owner of the manor and I found it was good revenge. I used to watch horror movies with my mother every night, any nudity and I would have to look away while she would tell me when I could look again. One day she just told me she was tired of doing that, so I got to see everything and it wasn't really hidden from me anymore. I did have a period where I watched "porn", which mostly consisted of nudity as I was curious how the other half appeared. As said, it was just at a certain point treated as normal.

My father for example is very much the type to make lewd jokes or stare at women. He loves talking about donkey porn, he finds the concept absolutely hilarious for some reason. Needless to say, he almost expects me to watch porn, but for much more normal reasons than finding it a viable alternative to not touching normal games. You can definitely tell he doesn't understand when I have stormed out of areas because a commercial for a game came on. He doesn't really get that I need a game with porn, not as a preference but as something that will allow me to have enjoyment without feeling massive guilt. It doesn't help that rape games seem to be the only type that work, since vanilla consensual sex means usually no consequences or mindless VNs. Or you know, "you are the most amazing person at Pong, which means you get a harem!", which just sort of suffers from power tripping.

There is a big trend in gaming in general where you are some powerful individual who can handle everything. That is one thing I love Thief about and to a lesser extent Unreal. They break the molds by putting you in a more powerless position. That is what I find entertaining.